caffeine after a long time without, my hands tremulous, mind snappy.
taking little sips from the styrofoam cup, the heat makes me more aware of my body. in a way i love it, that i have to engage with it, it blocks automatic gestures and thoughts. it pares down my movements. careful, more deliberate. sleeping last night in the heat, on top of my blankets. i don't think i ground my teeth last night out of desperate tiredness and relaxation.