spent the weekend in jersey for one of sean's annual extravaganzas. sean and those friends of his that i've known since high school were what ryn and i had for role models at the time. being around them again i get to stop trying to be grown up and just be admired, teased, tickled and cuddled. on top of much-needed face time with my two closest friends, kurt managed to cajole dear amy fae up from maryland. despite frequent references to a saga that took place during a dead zone in our correspondence, it was like no time had passed. i put the bindi on her forehead and played the zills while she danced as part of the evening's performances. kurt and i kept checking on her all night; most of the people at these things have known each other for years and it's hard to break in, especially if you don't like big groups of people. kurt also kept a watchful eye on me while i danced with the boys. at the end, though, dancing till 3 in the morning it was amy, ryn and i. the dj put on "she has a girlfriend now," and we all held hands and spun during the chorus, pointing at the boys watching and rolling our eyes.